And consequently so

I always find myself doing particular actions in a fierce attempt to prevent things from happening...and then, despite all my efforts, because of those efforts, the prevented action happens anyway. I stand, and I think to myself. If I hadn't worried about it in the first place, it probably would have never happened! *headdesk*

Either...I worry too much which causes that worried event to happen, Or it's just fate and there's nothing I can do about it. It was simply meant to happen and that's that. I suppose there is no way to track whether it was destined to happen or not. There is no machine that will take me back in time to try something different and see the outcome. How interesting life would be, if one could try different actions and then pick the best of the actions tested... I suppose that would be everyone's 'perfect world.' It would be without mistakes, or less of them to say the least. 

I've recently decided that I will just stop taking insane precautions. I'll just cry and let it out, and then it'll be over. There's no use bottling it. Too much pressure makes things explode. And exploding is just messy, and it's not fair to make someone else clean it up.