Once you get deep into something, you cannot stop yourself! The ball will continue to roll until you tear yourself away and stop running on top of it.
I envy Reshma and Ian's intelligence for recording thoughts over the summer. I thought a significant amount, but failed to come on and write about it. Some of these thoughts included:
-People need multiple groups of friends so their life doesn't crumble if something happens.
-Even though parents say they trust you, sometimes, they really don't mean it.
- I need a job if I'm going to function. (As in, spoil people)
-Why aren't there a lot of clouds this summer to see pictures in?
-I really wish it was cold, but I know in a couple months I'll wish for the exact opposite
-Cats pwn dogs. Probably because they act so much more like humans, which I find fascinating
-Why didn't I ask what type of cheese that German woman used?
-I can never go into childcare, or teaching, (I couldn't handle grades)
-I cannot wait until college, even though I'm almost positive it will be like an older version of high school.
-How do I make a difference in the world with Archaeology?? (I would be a doctor, but blood makes me a little queasy)
-Wow. Time flies. School..again!
22.10.10
Shock
I've been taking note of people around me, and it's incredible how judgmental some people are. It's also incredible how blatantly fake some people can be. Its shocking.
These observations only further cause me to agree with "No exit." People are a hell in themselves, yet, people need people to function properly. That is, function the way society wants them to. Honestly, I could be so fake to fit in, and be exactly what everyone wants: but that only leads to one thing : criticism of how 'fake' you're being. It is the ultimate double-edged sword that is completely unavoidable. No matter what, you will always be surrounded by people who will judge you and find reasons as to why your personality is not good enough.
Who knows whether it has something to do with a humans need for power and acceptance; there is always a bully's alibi -Put someone down to make yourself feel better. With everything going on in a person's life why can't *incoming cliche*
EVERYONE JUST GET ALONG?!?!
These observations only further cause me to agree with "No exit." People are a hell in themselves, yet, people need people to function properly. That is, function the way society wants them to. Honestly, I could be so fake to fit in, and be exactly what everyone wants: but that only leads to one thing : criticism of how 'fake' you're being. It is the ultimate double-edged sword that is completely unavoidable. No matter what, you will always be surrounded by people who will judge you and find reasons as to why your personality is not good enough.
Who knows whether it has something to do with a humans need for power and acceptance; there is always a bully's alibi -Put someone down to make yourself feel better. With everything going on in a person's life why can't *incoming cliche*
EVERYONE JUST GET ALONG?!?!
ACT
I'm not comparing myself to people.
I am simply feeling inadequate when the people around me happen to do much better. THere is nothing wrong with feeling inferior when you struggle at something everyone else seems to succeed at.
When I say struggle: it's not really a struggle. It's average, some may even say better than average. But even so, when you're around people who do excellent, your better than average starts to look more and more like a struggle. It's frustrating because I'm not a good test-taker. I'm better at essays than multiple-choice and (in the words of Chloe) "it's much easier, when you know what you're talking about."
Standardized tests have little information you can prepare for. You have no idea what information you'll be tested on. All you know is the amount of questions, the amount of time, and that the topics are over things you "should have covered during high school."
To me, I have trouble understanding how one test can account for all of the different types of possible classes a student takes. None of them are going to be the same, and based on the information: you could learn very little of what will be on the test. Maybe no English teacher has ever gone over grammar since 1st grade, so there's no telling how many grammatical errors you make naturally and do not realize it. (Obviously Mr. Wilcox, if you've been reading my writing long enough, you'll notice I have comma issues that no one has explicitly corrected.)
SO basically. I have to go in tomorrow morning. And I'm nervous. The end.
I am simply feeling inadequate when the people around me happen to do much better. THere is nothing wrong with feeling inferior when you struggle at something everyone else seems to succeed at.
When I say struggle: it's not really a struggle. It's average, some may even say better than average. But even so, when you're around people who do excellent, your better than average starts to look more and more like a struggle. It's frustrating because I'm not a good test-taker. I'm better at essays than multiple-choice and (in the words of Chloe) "it's much easier, when you know what you're talking about."
Standardized tests have little information you can prepare for. You have no idea what information you'll be tested on. All you know is the amount of questions, the amount of time, and that the topics are over things you "should have covered during high school."
To me, I have trouble understanding how one test can account for all of the different types of possible classes a student takes. None of them are going to be the same, and based on the information: you could learn very little of what will be on the test. Maybe no English teacher has ever gone over grammar since 1st grade, so there's no telling how many grammatical errors you make naturally and do not realize it. (Obviously Mr. Wilcox, if you've been reading my writing long enough, you'll notice I have comma issues that no one has explicitly corrected.)
SO basically. I have to go in tomorrow morning. And I'm nervous. The end.
Opposing views.
Jm recently posted a view on the reasoning to why he feels wanting people skills is selfish, and I completely disagree. A work ethic is far more selfish than wanting to interact with people.
A good work ethic, for the most part benefits the self. It allows YOU to get things done. They may be for someone else, but the typical high school teenager wants a better work ethic to get homework done and over with to do what THEY want to do. Yes, in the future that will benefit an employer, but the work ethic is what will get them there in the first place. If we're going to compare, that seems pretty selfish in itself.
Wanting good people skills can be given the same argument. If you have good people skills and work with a career in relations, that will benefit your employer. If psychologists, teachers, doctors, or anyone who deals with customer service didn't have good people skills, they wouldn't have that job: No one would trust them. Wanting good people skills can be beneficial to other people if a person comes across someone who needed a friend. If the person with people skills didn't have those attributes, that would negatively affect the person desiring comfort. Yes, good people skills may aid in making friends and having friends, but that is not the only side of the argument.
And frankly, wanting good people skills and wanting to handle conflict easier are different answers with different backgrounds to them.
A good work ethic, for the most part benefits the self. It allows YOU to get things done. They may be for someone else, but the typical high school teenager wants a better work ethic to get homework done and over with to do what THEY want to do. Yes, in the future that will benefit an employer, but the work ethic is what will get them there in the first place. If we're going to compare, that seems pretty selfish in itself.
Wanting good people skills can be given the same argument. If you have good people skills and work with a career in relations, that will benefit your employer. If psychologists, teachers, doctors, or anyone who deals with customer service didn't have good people skills, they wouldn't have that job: No one would trust them. Wanting good people skills can be beneficial to other people if a person comes across someone who needed a friend. If the person with people skills didn't have those attributes, that would negatively affect the person desiring comfort. Yes, good people skills may aid in making friends and having friends, but that is not the only side of the argument.
And frankly, wanting good people skills and wanting to handle conflict easier are different answers with different backgrounds to them.
GAH
Apparently, it is difficult to get fired at Calvin Klein. In order to be fired, you need to be written up so many times - enough to prove that you're detrimental, and then you can be fired.
Apparently, not doing your job is not enough to get fired. Even if you get written up a lot, it is not enough to be asked to leave. The only way is to cut hours, and hint for a person to quit. This fact is so frustrating to me. Why pay people who are actually doing work the same as a person who slacks and leaves work to be done? How is that fair at all?
The same is with teachers. Although the idea that everyone is equal is all good and great, but the facts are: there are better teachers.
The system is unfair, and he needs to just get fired and stop making racist and sexual comments at people. I cannot believe that is not enough to get him fired!
GAH
Apparently, not doing your job is not enough to get fired. Even if you get written up a lot, it is not enough to be asked to leave. The only way is to cut hours, and hint for a person to quit. This fact is so frustrating to me. Why pay people who are actually doing work the same as a person who slacks and leaves work to be done? How is that fair at all?
The same is with teachers. Although the idea that everyone is equal is all good and great, but the facts are: there are better teachers.
The system is unfair, and he needs to just get fired and stop making racist and sexual comments at people. I cannot believe that is not enough to get him fired!
GAH
19.10.10
NO TIME FOR THINKING!
I've written about this before, but it definitely came into play the other day. You CANNOT rush artistic ideas. It's impossible. I always think that pushing your mind to produce an idea that is not there never works. It has to BE there. Unless it's a rushy idea....but that's completely diffferent. Attempting to force something out of my brain that wasn't ready for it does not work. At all.
This was very evident with the last week of the quarter in art. My first project took much of the quarter, and left me with a couple days to do a whole project. That weekend was one of the most stressful weekends the whole year. Too much needed to get done too quickly, and it did not work out the way I wanted it. Although near impossible, it would be ideal to arrange a schedule around a thinking process, but there do need to be deadlines.
Therefore. One should plan ahead so they aren't trying to accomplish too much in one night. The mind has so many ideas flying around, it needs time to sort it out. Who knew that the planner was actually helpful? The mind works too fast to keep everything in check, you almost have to write things down. I do not believe anyone can keep track of all their thoughts and remember everything!
This was very evident with the last week of the quarter in art. My first project took much of the quarter, and left me with a couple days to do a whole project. That weekend was one of the most stressful weekends the whole year. Too much needed to get done too quickly, and it did not work out the way I wanted it. Although near impossible, it would be ideal to arrange a schedule around a thinking process, but there do need to be deadlines.
Therefore. One should plan ahead so they aren't trying to accomplish too much in one night. The mind has so many ideas flying around, it needs time to sort it out. Who knew that the planner was actually helpful? The mind works too fast to keep everything in check, you almost have to write things down. I do not believe anyone can keep track of all their thoughts and remember everything!
The Science of Mastering
Technically, it takes 10,000 hours to master any task. If you calculate it, that is approximately 1 1/8 years straight of doing something over and over again. 10,000 hours: That's 416 days. Doing something straight for over a year without stopping will get a person to excel at anything.
IN retrospect, there are few things that humans have master by 17 years of age. In fact, very quickly (as in, a matter of a few years), all humans master the tasks of:
Breathing
Sleeping
Eating
Walking
And....that's about it. Unless you happen to be a prodigy, or were started on something in the early years of your life, there is not much that teenagers could say they were masters at. A little disappointing, but logical. As a student, it seems like studying or doing homework should be an easier task after 12 years of it, but that being said, the difficulty of the homework increased, and the material changed.
However, I think it is interesting that the thing getting mastered first are the tasks that are key to survival. Obviously, you breathe all the time to get oxygen to your body. You eat and sleep to gain and restore energy, and you walk to transport from one place to another. If it wasn't for emotions, that would really be all that was needed. Makes sense, I suppose.
IN retrospect, there are few things that humans have master by 17 years of age. In fact, very quickly (as in, a matter of a few years), all humans master the tasks of:
Breathing
Sleeping
Eating
Walking
And....that's about it. Unless you happen to be a prodigy, or were started on something in the early years of your life, there is not much that teenagers could say they were masters at. A little disappointing, but logical. As a student, it seems like studying or doing homework should be an easier task after 12 years of it, but that being said, the difficulty of the homework increased, and the material changed.
However, I think it is interesting that the thing getting mastered first are the tasks that are key to survival. Obviously, you breathe all the time to get oxygen to your body. You eat and sleep to gain and restore energy, and you walk to transport from one place to another. If it wasn't for emotions, that would really be all that was needed. Makes sense, I suppose.
Bodies!
The other day, we visited the Bodies Exhibit down in Cleveland as a biology field trip.
Fetusfetusfetusfetus.
It was extremely interesting to see real body parts (although plasticized, they looked very real)
The most interesting, and possibly the most controversial, part of the whole exhibit was the fetal development room. It showed the week-by-week life of a growing being from the beginning. There was a sign warning against faint-hearted people, and a constant heartbeat could be heard in the entire wing.
I don't know what about the exhibit made it so eerie and unreal. Possibly just to have little (what was potential) lives sitting in front of you to get as close as you want (without touching of course) gave the whole experience such a surreal quality. It's one thing to read about how things work in a textbook, and a whole other situation when you see it in real life. The tangibility of something always has a much bigger impact on the mind and one's emotions than anything else.
It's similar to reading about death. If you watched someone die the way it is described in books, that circumstance will impact your life much more forcefully than anything you could watch on tv or read in a novel.
Fetusfetusfetusfetus.
It was extremely interesting to see real body parts (although plasticized, they looked very real)
The most interesting, and possibly the most controversial, part of the whole exhibit was the fetal development room. It showed the week-by-week life of a growing being from the beginning. There was a sign warning against faint-hearted people, and a constant heartbeat could be heard in the entire wing.
I don't know what about the exhibit made it so eerie and unreal. Possibly just to have little (what was potential) lives sitting in front of you to get as close as you want (without touching of course) gave the whole experience such a surreal quality. It's one thing to read about how things work in a textbook, and a whole other situation when you see it in real life. The tangibility of something always has a much bigger impact on the mind and one's emotions than anything else.
It's similar to reading about death. If you watched someone die the way it is described in books, that circumstance will impact your life much more forcefully than anything you could watch on tv or read in a novel.
Oral COMmentary
I've taken voice lessons before, and my teacher used to record them so I could listen. Even singing I couldn't stand the sound of my own voice. It makes me cringe, or just feel embarrassed. I fin it strange that most people cannot handle the sound of their own voice. Is that only because it sounds different than how we hear ourselves within our head, or simply some aversion people have about themselves.
It is almost the same as looking in a mirror, and comparing it to looking at yourself in a photograph. Most of people will agree, they prefer their reflection to how they actually look. Is this because there is that big of a difference, or because people are simply just used to their face backwards? As for me, I definitely prefer the appearance of my reflection. I feel like it hides my lazy eye, but all of my friends agree that my reflection makes it more obvious. Similarly, I cannot stand own voice being recorded. This makes me worried for the oral commentary for English. Although I only hear the beginning over to make sure I'm speaking clearly, it weirds me out being recorded. It puts an immense amount of pressure because a recording is permanent. It can be continuously replayed so nothing is forgotten.
It does not have anything to do with the fact of analyzing the poem, and everything to do with the fact that there's a time constraint and the veryvery NOT temporary nature of the assignment. We get one shot, and then it's over. It is worth about 20% of the grade, and you never even know what score you get. Ever.
All this worrying for such ambiguity. I suppose that's what IB is about.
It is almost the same as looking in a mirror, and comparing it to looking at yourself in a photograph. Most of people will agree, they prefer their reflection to how they actually look. Is this because there is that big of a difference, or because people are simply just used to their face backwards? As for me, I definitely prefer the appearance of my reflection. I feel like it hides my lazy eye, but all of my friends agree that my reflection makes it more obvious. Similarly, I cannot stand own voice being recorded. This makes me worried for the oral commentary for English. Although I only hear the beginning over to make sure I'm speaking clearly, it weirds me out being recorded. It puts an immense amount of pressure because a recording is permanent. It can be continuously replayed so nothing is forgotten.
It does not have anything to do with the fact of analyzing the poem, and everything to do with the fact that there's a time constraint and the veryvery NOT temporary nature of the assignment. We get one shot, and then it's over. It is worth about 20% of the grade, and you never even know what score you get. Ever.
All this worrying for such ambiguity. I suppose that's what IB is about.
That's it pop tart! I'm gonna dog-pound you straight to China!
The other night, I watched Bitch Slap, a movie about three slutty women who find themselves involved in a top-secret crime and reward. It was absolutely horrible; although there was no one to blame, we watched it for the sole purpose of making fun of it.
What I did not expect, was the intense amount of unnecessary graphic violence included throughout the entire film. These scenes range from breaking someone's penis, to raking someone in the chest, to slicing someone with a bladed yo-yo, to ho-hum explosions of cars.
Between scenes of utter ridiculousness and name-calling, was basically soft-core porn.
Beautiful combination, no? So. Basically....hilarious, but hardly thought provoking. Except, in the end, they throw in a line to attempt any deep train of thought; as if the writers looked over their work and decided to make a last effort to save it.
Four words:
IT DID NOT WORK
As promising as the title made it, it will never be a good movie, and it will never be anything more than a video to either make fun of or to enjoy lesbian make out scenes. As a disclaimer: we had no idea what the movie was about when picking. We're not creepy, we promise! But we do enjoy a good laugh, which was the only thing Bitch Slap is good for.
What I did not expect, was the intense amount of unnecessary graphic violence included throughout the entire film. These scenes range from breaking someone's penis, to raking someone in the chest, to slicing someone with a bladed yo-yo, to ho-hum explosions of cars.
Between scenes of utter ridiculousness and name-calling, was basically soft-core porn.
Beautiful combination, no? So. Basically....hilarious, but hardly thought provoking. Except, in the end, they throw in a line to attempt any deep train of thought; as if the writers looked over their work and decided to make a last effort to save it.
Four words:
IT DID NOT WORK
As promising as the title made it, it will never be a good movie, and it will never be anything more than a video to either make fun of or to enjoy lesbian make out scenes. As a disclaimer: we had no idea what the movie was about when picking. We're not creepy, we promise! But we do enjoy a good laugh, which was the only thing Bitch Slap is good for.
Genetic brain?
Particularly with colleges, if you're related to someone who went to that college, it somehow guarantees an intelligence level. However, I don't believe it works that way. There are studies shown that kids with intelligent parents are more likely to be intelligent themselves, but how much is actual intelligence, and how much is personality or pressure within the family. Is it really possible for intelligence to be passed down genetically? The genetic information to create a brain is definitely passed down, but it's disputable as to whether the intelligence level is. Everyone thinks differently, how could it be possible to transfer a thinking process, or a level of thinking to offspring. That would be crazy. How could brain functions become genetically passed down.
This ties back again to the fact that we as humans know so little about the brain. Maybe we do pass down intelligence, but we have yet to access the part of the brain that would determine that.
Who knows. Go Science Go!
This ties back again to the fact that we as humans know so little about the brain. Maybe we do pass down intelligence, but we have yet to access the part of the brain that would determine that.
Who knows. Go Science Go!
6.10.10
bullies
We watched Jeremy by Pearl Jam in English class. It made me hate bullies even more.
I honestly think some people are just mean, but for the most part, they are just insecure. They need to be right, they need to be dominant and strong. Sometimes those traits are useful and helpful, but there can be negative effects.
Bullies can take the form of many things. They can be violent, or verbal. Honestly, verbal abuse is always worse. Sticks and Stones hurt, but frankly: words hurt a lot. Especially when you don't expect them. Sometimes people don't realize their actions, and don't want to hear criticism from people who they think don't have a legitimate viewpoint. It's frustrating, knowing there is little you can do to change those people's minds. THEY ARE SO STUBBORN.
People who are just mean don't deserve the attention they get, and frankly, should be punished for it. (Although catching that kind of stuff would be ridiculous). If that kind of abuse goes to the point of someone's life ending, that, to me, is enough to make a person feel guilty for the rest of their life. To have that on a conscience would be devastating, and not only force someone to reevaluate their life, but their choices, their friends...etc. I wouldn't even know how to handle knowing I was responsible for someone else's death. Maybe not directly responsible, but the source of all the frustration: to the point where someone feels their life isn't worth living....
Freaky stuff. Horrible stuff.
People should not live in ignorance. That video should not be banned, the lesson within it is too important, and people need to hear it.
I honestly think some people are just mean, but for the most part, they are just insecure. They need to be right, they need to be dominant and strong. Sometimes those traits are useful and helpful, but there can be negative effects.
Bullies can take the form of many things. They can be violent, or verbal. Honestly, verbal abuse is always worse. Sticks and Stones hurt, but frankly: words hurt a lot. Especially when you don't expect them. Sometimes people don't realize their actions, and don't want to hear criticism from people who they think don't have a legitimate viewpoint. It's frustrating, knowing there is little you can do to change those people's minds. THEY ARE SO STUBBORN.
People who are just mean don't deserve the attention they get, and frankly, should be punished for it. (Although catching that kind of stuff would be ridiculous). If that kind of abuse goes to the point of someone's life ending, that, to me, is enough to make a person feel guilty for the rest of their life. To have that on a conscience would be devastating, and not only force someone to reevaluate their life, but their choices, their friends...etc. I wouldn't even know how to handle knowing I was responsible for someone else's death. Maybe not directly responsible, but the source of all the frustration: to the point where someone feels their life isn't worth living....
Freaky stuff. Horrible stuff.
People should not live in ignorance. That video should not be banned, the lesson within it is too important, and people need to hear it.
Add more- do better?
I find it ironic that the more activity added to your plate at a time, the more things get done in a day. Yes, that is logical, but in terms of homework. I always feel the more I'm involved in, the more I have to plan to get things done, and thus, things get done. It's magical.
When there is less going on, and more free time, a person can become too comfortable in their situation, and find all of their work getting put off.
However, on the contrary, when there is TOO much to the point where there is no time to do anything, that's when there's trouble. There needs to be enough time where you can plan to actually do things, but not too little time you cannot accomplish anything.
Like swimming. which is too intense. I enjoy it, but six days a week for 4 hours is not the kind of time I have with IB and everything else needing to get done. It just doesn't happen: it's impossible unless I drop EVERYTHING else. Maybe not, but I'm not willing to risk that. I learned my lesson Junior year.
But now:
IB, Working 20 hours a week, Play, NHS, Show Choir, Applying to College, Extended Essay, plus life, plus chores.
And I still manage to reasonably get it all done.
Some how.
I'm satisfied.
When there is less going on, and more free time, a person can become too comfortable in their situation, and find all of their work getting put off.
However, on the contrary, when there is TOO much to the point where there is no time to do anything, that's when there's trouble. There needs to be enough time where you can plan to actually do things, but not too little time you cannot accomplish anything.
Like swimming. which is too intense. I enjoy it, but six days a week for 4 hours is not the kind of time I have with IB and everything else needing to get done. It just doesn't happen: it's impossible unless I drop EVERYTHING else. Maybe not, but I'm not willing to risk that. I learned my lesson Junior year.
But now:
IB, Working 20 hours a week, Play, NHS, Show Choir, Applying to College, Extended Essay, plus life, plus chores.
And I still manage to reasonably get it all done.
Some how.
I'm satisfied.
True inspriation
Is it possible to get an original idea: Something that is completely your own.
I find it difficult to even conceptualize. Almost everything is based off of something else for inspiration, or a demand. Is there anything that was designed based on something that had never been created or even thought of?
Have there ever been any circumstance where there wasn't any problem or situation that did not create an idea?
Even dreams, which have some bizarre and unexplainable occurrences are often theorized to stem from bits and pieces of thought that our minds mulled over during the day and put together into a sequence. Perhaps our minds generate so many ideas at once, we just cannot pin down or separate what is originally our own, and what is following what we're immersed in at the time.
It is said we only use a small fraction of our brain. What could people think up if more of that was accessed? Will that ever be possible? I'm almost positive none of these ideas have never been thought of before. In fact, I'm certain. I'm certain the majority of our thoughts are only relaying information we've seen or heard from another source. The mind draws the information from the source of inspiration, and conveys it in a unique way, but is that really unique if the information is not?
Maybe our minds will never know a unique thought. But that's what being intellectually aware is about. Generating and swapping new ideas. Often about things that are current that need to be changed. Does drawing a new idea from an already established idea count as a new idea, even though there is other information presenting the platform for that new idea already in place?
Maybe I'm not making any sense. I suppose you'll have to think about it.
I find it difficult to even conceptualize. Almost everything is based off of something else for inspiration, or a demand. Is there anything that was designed based on something that had never been created or even thought of?
Have there ever been any circumstance where there wasn't any problem or situation that did not create an idea?
Even dreams, which have some bizarre and unexplainable occurrences are often theorized to stem from bits and pieces of thought that our minds mulled over during the day and put together into a sequence. Perhaps our minds generate so many ideas at once, we just cannot pin down or separate what is originally our own, and what is following what we're immersed in at the time.
It is said we only use a small fraction of our brain. What could people think up if more of that was accessed? Will that ever be possible? I'm almost positive none of these ideas have never been thought of before. In fact, I'm certain. I'm certain the majority of our thoughts are only relaying information we've seen or heard from another source. The mind draws the information from the source of inspiration, and conveys it in a unique way, but is that really unique if the information is not?
Maybe our minds will never know a unique thought. But that's what being intellectually aware is about. Generating and swapping new ideas. Often about things that are current that need to be changed. Does drawing a new idea from an already established idea count as a new idea, even though there is other information presenting the platform for that new idea already in place?
Maybe I'm not making any sense. I suppose you'll have to think about it.
mawwage. is wat bwings us togedahh.
I believe in marriage for life. You should be so sure, it's stressful. I was always under the impression that my parents got along well and were fine. But since my mom started school, they fight more and more. They had a really bad fight over the summer, and it freaked me out. It was so bizarre to see a union that had seemed perfectly fine (minus a few flaws, but who doesn't have them?) suddenly feel like it was falling apart.
My younger sister has become so paranoid and put off by it, she questioned my mom about it. My mom told my sister she was having trouble with my dad, and that things were not going so well....now my sister cries every time they fight.
I'm not sure who to blame. GAH.
I think both of them have issues they just need to let go of, and I believe that once my mom is out of school things will get better...but right now, I'm worried and concerned. My mom admits my father is still her best friend in the whole world, but he just gets on her nerves a lot.
I told my mom she needed to say something to my sister. She had no idea what my sister was going through. It's been better lately, I hope it stays that way.
just a random dabble into my personal life, how love can change from what it should be, or what it used to be.
In fact, i based a painting off of it. It had a flatline, and feathers from Eros (basically, the greek Cupid). The feathers started white, and slowly turned black by the end of the flatline. It was mostly conceptual, and you could interpret a lot from the piece, but that's where it came from; I didn't want to say it out loud.
My younger sister has become so paranoid and put off by it, she questioned my mom about it. My mom told my sister she was having trouble with my dad, and that things were not going so well....now my sister cries every time they fight.
I'm not sure who to blame. GAH.
I think both of them have issues they just need to let go of, and I believe that once my mom is out of school things will get better...but right now, I'm worried and concerned. My mom admits my father is still her best friend in the whole world, but he just gets on her nerves a lot.
I told my mom she needed to say something to my sister. She had no idea what my sister was going through. It's been better lately, I hope it stays that way.
just a random dabble into my personal life, how love can change from what it should be, or what it used to be.
In fact, i based a painting off of it. It had a flatline, and feathers from Eros (basically, the greek Cupid). The feathers started white, and slowly turned black by the end of the flatline. It was mostly conceptual, and you could interpret a lot from the piece, but that's where it came from; I didn't want to say it out loud.
Artsy fartsy.
I enjoy IB Art. It has intellectually forced me to make assumptions about myself and the events around me in ways I have never known. The class and the way it is structured forces me to actually think about topics in my life and convert it into art to express it to other people. Now when I talk about my art, I have research and meaning. I can talk about what thought went into each component, and what it's purpose is. It isn't just "I thought it looked cool" or "I dunno" when I'm answering questions.
The workbook is a pain and the time constraint is stressful and exhausting, but at the end, I'm always proud of what I accomplished and what I can show people i've done. I finally feel like a true artist, and it's exhilarating. That being said, there is such a thing as artist's block that can happen as often as you let it, but past that: creative ideas are a beautiful thing. To have an idea and know what elements to add - a stroke here, a line there- to convey an emotion or mood for a whole piece -in just a movement!
I am no expert. There is much I need to learn and experience, but I can feel it getting better
I have a direction, and I have the freedom to do it within the class (minus some details and markbands).
Art is finally what I want to do and FUN.
Nuff said.
The workbook is a pain and the time constraint is stressful and exhausting, but at the end, I'm always proud of what I accomplished and what I can show people i've done. I finally feel like a true artist, and it's exhilarating. That being said, there is such a thing as artist's block that can happen as often as you let it, but past that: creative ideas are a beautiful thing. To have an idea and know what elements to add - a stroke here, a line there- to convey an emotion or mood for a whole piece -in just a movement!
I am no expert. There is much I need to learn and experience, but I can feel it getting better
I have a direction, and I have the freedom to do it within the class (minus some details and markbands).
Art is finally what I want to do and FUN.
Nuff said.
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