I've been taking note of people around me, and it's incredible how judgmental some people are. It's also incredible how blatantly fake some people can be. Its shocking.
These observations only further cause me to agree with "No exit." People are a hell in themselves, yet, people need people to function properly. That is, function the way society wants them to. Honestly, I could be so fake to fit in, and be exactly what everyone wants: but that only leads to one thing : criticism of how 'fake' you're being. It is the ultimate double-edged sword that is completely unavoidable. No matter what, you will always be surrounded by people who will judge you and find reasons as to why your personality is not good enough.
Who knows whether it has something to do with a humans need for power and acceptance; there is always a bully's alibi -Put someone down to make yourself feel better. With everything going on in a person's life why can't *incoming cliche*
EVERYONE JUST GET ALONG?!?!
22.10.10
ACT
I'm not comparing myself to people.
I am simply feeling inadequate when the people around me happen to do much better. THere is nothing wrong with feeling inferior when you struggle at something everyone else seems to succeed at.
When I say struggle: it's not really a struggle. It's average, some may even say better than average. But even so, when you're around people who do excellent, your better than average starts to look more and more like a struggle. It's frustrating because I'm not a good test-taker. I'm better at essays than multiple-choice and (in the words of Chloe) "it's much easier, when you know what you're talking about."
Standardized tests have little information you can prepare for. You have no idea what information you'll be tested on. All you know is the amount of questions, the amount of time, and that the topics are over things you "should have covered during high school."
To me, I have trouble understanding how one test can account for all of the different types of possible classes a student takes. None of them are going to be the same, and based on the information: you could learn very little of what will be on the test. Maybe no English teacher has ever gone over grammar since 1st grade, so there's no telling how many grammatical errors you make naturally and do not realize it. (Obviously Mr. Wilcox, if you've been reading my writing long enough, you'll notice I have comma issues that no one has explicitly corrected.)
SO basically. I have to go in tomorrow morning. And I'm nervous. The end.
I am simply feeling inadequate when the people around me happen to do much better. THere is nothing wrong with feeling inferior when you struggle at something everyone else seems to succeed at.
When I say struggle: it's not really a struggle. It's average, some may even say better than average. But even so, when you're around people who do excellent, your better than average starts to look more and more like a struggle. It's frustrating because I'm not a good test-taker. I'm better at essays than multiple-choice and (in the words of Chloe) "it's much easier, when you know what you're talking about."
Standardized tests have little information you can prepare for. You have no idea what information you'll be tested on. All you know is the amount of questions, the amount of time, and that the topics are over things you "should have covered during high school."
To me, I have trouble understanding how one test can account for all of the different types of possible classes a student takes. None of them are going to be the same, and based on the information: you could learn very little of what will be on the test. Maybe no English teacher has ever gone over grammar since 1st grade, so there's no telling how many grammatical errors you make naturally and do not realize it. (Obviously Mr. Wilcox, if you've been reading my writing long enough, you'll notice I have comma issues that no one has explicitly corrected.)
SO basically. I have to go in tomorrow morning. And I'm nervous. The end.
Opposing views.
Jm recently posted a view on the reasoning to why he feels wanting people skills is selfish, and I completely disagree. A work ethic is far more selfish than wanting to interact with people.
A good work ethic, for the most part benefits the self. It allows YOU to get things done. They may be for someone else, but the typical high school teenager wants a better work ethic to get homework done and over with to do what THEY want to do. Yes, in the future that will benefit an employer, but the work ethic is what will get them there in the first place. If we're going to compare, that seems pretty selfish in itself.
Wanting good people skills can be given the same argument. If you have good people skills and work with a career in relations, that will benefit your employer. If psychologists, teachers, doctors, or anyone who deals with customer service didn't have good people skills, they wouldn't have that job: No one would trust them. Wanting good people skills can be beneficial to other people if a person comes across someone who needed a friend. If the person with people skills didn't have those attributes, that would negatively affect the person desiring comfort. Yes, good people skills may aid in making friends and having friends, but that is not the only side of the argument.
And frankly, wanting good people skills and wanting to handle conflict easier are different answers with different backgrounds to them.
A good work ethic, for the most part benefits the self. It allows YOU to get things done. They may be for someone else, but the typical high school teenager wants a better work ethic to get homework done and over with to do what THEY want to do. Yes, in the future that will benefit an employer, but the work ethic is what will get them there in the first place. If we're going to compare, that seems pretty selfish in itself.
Wanting good people skills can be given the same argument. If you have good people skills and work with a career in relations, that will benefit your employer. If psychologists, teachers, doctors, or anyone who deals with customer service didn't have good people skills, they wouldn't have that job: No one would trust them. Wanting good people skills can be beneficial to other people if a person comes across someone who needed a friend. If the person with people skills didn't have those attributes, that would negatively affect the person desiring comfort. Yes, good people skills may aid in making friends and having friends, but that is not the only side of the argument.
And frankly, wanting good people skills and wanting to handle conflict easier are different answers with different backgrounds to them.
GAH
Apparently, it is difficult to get fired at Calvin Klein. In order to be fired, you need to be written up so many times - enough to prove that you're detrimental, and then you can be fired.
Apparently, not doing your job is not enough to get fired. Even if you get written up a lot, it is not enough to be asked to leave. The only way is to cut hours, and hint for a person to quit. This fact is so frustrating to me. Why pay people who are actually doing work the same as a person who slacks and leaves work to be done? How is that fair at all?
The same is with teachers. Although the idea that everyone is equal is all good and great, but the facts are: there are better teachers.
The system is unfair, and he needs to just get fired and stop making racist and sexual comments at people. I cannot believe that is not enough to get him fired!
GAH
Apparently, not doing your job is not enough to get fired. Even if you get written up a lot, it is not enough to be asked to leave. The only way is to cut hours, and hint for a person to quit. This fact is so frustrating to me. Why pay people who are actually doing work the same as a person who slacks and leaves work to be done? How is that fair at all?
The same is with teachers. Although the idea that everyone is equal is all good and great, but the facts are: there are better teachers.
The system is unfair, and he needs to just get fired and stop making racist and sexual comments at people. I cannot believe that is not enough to get him fired!
GAH
19.10.10
NO TIME FOR THINKING!
I've written about this before, but it definitely came into play the other day. You CANNOT rush artistic ideas. It's impossible. I always think that pushing your mind to produce an idea that is not there never works. It has to BE there. Unless it's a rushy idea....but that's completely diffferent. Attempting to force something out of my brain that wasn't ready for it does not work. At all.
This was very evident with the last week of the quarter in art. My first project took much of the quarter, and left me with a couple days to do a whole project. That weekend was one of the most stressful weekends the whole year. Too much needed to get done too quickly, and it did not work out the way I wanted it. Although near impossible, it would be ideal to arrange a schedule around a thinking process, but there do need to be deadlines.
Therefore. One should plan ahead so they aren't trying to accomplish too much in one night. The mind has so many ideas flying around, it needs time to sort it out. Who knew that the planner was actually helpful? The mind works too fast to keep everything in check, you almost have to write things down. I do not believe anyone can keep track of all their thoughts and remember everything!
This was very evident with the last week of the quarter in art. My first project took much of the quarter, and left me with a couple days to do a whole project. That weekend was one of the most stressful weekends the whole year. Too much needed to get done too quickly, and it did not work out the way I wanted it. Although near impossible, it would be ideal to arrange a schedule around a thinking process, but there do need to be deadlines.
Therefore. One should plan ahead so they aren't trying to accomplish too much in one night. The mind has so many ideas flying around, it needs time to sort it out. Who knew that the planner was actually helpful? The mind works too fast to keep everything in check, you almost have to write things down. I do not believe anyone can keep track of all their thoughts and remember everything!
The Science of Mastering
Technically, it takes 10,000 hours to master any task. If you calculate it, that is approximately 1 1/8 years straight of doing something over and over again. 10,000 hours: That's 416 days. Doing something straight for over a year without stopping will get a person to excel at anything.
IN retrospect, there are few things that humans have master by 17 years of age. In fact, very quickly (as in, a matter of a few years), all humans master the tasks of:
Breathing
Sleeping
Eating
Walking
And....that's about it. Unless you happen to be a prodigy, or were started on something in the early years of your life, there is not much that teenagers could say they were masters at. A little disappointing, but logical. As a student, it seems like studying or doing homework should be an easier task after 12 years of it, but that being said, the difficulty of the homework increased, and the material changed.
However, I think it is interesting that the thing getting mastered first are the tasks that are key to survival. Obviously, you breathe all the time to get oxygen to your body. You eat and sleep to gain and restore energy, and you walk to transport from one place to another. If it wasn't for emotions, that would really be all that was needed. Makes sense, I suppose.
IN retrospect, there are few things that humans have master by 17 years of age. In fact, very quickly (as in, a matter of a few years), all humans master the tasks of:
Breathing
Sleeping
Eating
Walking
And....that's about it. Unless you happen to be a prodigy, or were started on something in the early years of your life, there is not much that teenagers could say they were masters at. A little disappointing, but logical. As a student, it seems like studying or doing homework should be an easier task after 12 years of it, but that being said, the difficulty of the homework increased, and the material changed.
However, I think it is interesting that the thing getting mastered first are the tasks that are key to survival. Obviously, you breathe all the time to get oxygen to your body. You eat and sleep to gain and restore energy, and you walk to transport from one place to another. If it wasn't for emotions, that would really be all that was needed. Makes sense, I suppose.
Bodies!
The other day, we visited the Bodies Exhibit down in Cleveland as a biology field trip.
Fetusfetusfetusfetus.
It was extremely interesting to see real body parts (although plasticized, they looked very real)
The most interesting, and possibly the most controversial, part of the whole exhibit was the fetal development room. It showed the week-by-week life of a growing being from the beginning. There was a sign warning against faint-hearted people, and a constant heartbeat could be heard in the entire wing.
I don't know what about the exhibit made it so eerie and unreal. Possibly just to have little (what was potential) lives sitting in front of you to get as close as you want (without touching of course) gave the whole experience such a surreal quality. It's one thing to read about how things work in a textbook, and a whole other situation when you see it in real life. The tangibility of something always has a much bigger impact on the mind and one's emotions than anything else.
It's similar to reading about death. If you watched someone die the way it is described in books, that circumstance will impact your life much more forcefully than anything you could watch on tv or read in a novel.
Fetusfetusfetusfetus.
It was extremely interesting to see real body parts (although plasticized, they looked very real)
The most interesting, and possibly the most controversial, part of the whole exhibit was the fetal development room. It showed the week-by-week life of a growing being from the beginning. There was a sign warning against faint-hearted people, and a constant heartbeat could be heard in the entire wing.
I don't know what about the exhibit made it so eerie and unreal. Possibly just to have little (what was potential) lives sitting in front of you to get as close as you want (without touching of course) gave the whole experience such a surreal quality. It's one thing to read about how things work in a textbook, and a whole other situation when you see it in real life. The tangibility of something always has a much bigger impact on the mind and one's emotions than anything else.
It's similar to reading about death. If you watched someone die the way it is described in books, that circumstance will impact your life much more forcefully than anything you could watch on tv or read in a novel.
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